Recently, i've been thinking a lot... A few of my frenz r married n they married young n even having children aready... I used 2 think maybe i'll married young 2 becoz of some so called young gal's dreamz... But as i grow older, i realised tat i'm perfectly fine being single n quite used 2 e lifestyle tat i'm living now... But when ur frenz around u r having their partners n gettting married u kind of getting a bit of envy n happy 4 them... I noe my tots a bit 矛盾, like being single but as e same time envied frens who gt married... I mean i would sometime will think will i get married in e future, will i even get a bf in e future anot but den on e hand i think tat i'm juz being scared 2 be alone... I'm a very insercure gal, i admit tat even rite now i'm a christian i'm still insercure esp when i'm alone... Tatz y most of e time i juz hate being alone... But i wun wan 2 juz get married juz becoz i'm scare being alone or even its time 2 get married it's time... i love babies, their warmth n their cuteness... But somehw i juz dunno if i ever hav a baby of my own? Even if i wan 2 hav 1, there's still 1 problem... My lifetime partner... Lolz... Xp
But finding life time partner, itz quite hard... Y would u go 4 looks when one day u will grow old? Y would u go 4 e body when one day ur body might 走样? It's always tis n tat n u nv satified... Every1 is saying wadz their条件 4 their 理想的伴侣, hav they ever wonder wad if they dun meet? Sometimes i do think... N i noe tat i think a lot n most of e time 就胡思乱想一番, 想些有的没的...
Well, as my fren always say y u think so much n worried so much when its seems like so far away? Well... Izzit really tat far away? Xp anyway, itz no point n useless 2 say n worried now... Y do u worry 4 2molo when u hav 2day 2 wory abt? xp
