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Thursday, November 19, 2009

recently, I've been thinking a lot n once while I'm in e bus passing by e traffic lights... it suddenly dawn 2 mi... e colours of e traffic lights r oso a signal 2 us. =0 wad do i mean by tat?

red - stop ur footsteps, quiet urself down
yellow - wait, waiting 4 God
green - go, walk on e path tat u created or God wanz u 2 go

itz simple. God wanz us to stop, quieten ourselves down so tat we can listen to Him better. to wait for Him, not in e hurry to get out of His presence,. while we listened to His voice, go e way He wan us 2 not e other way round.

recently our pace r getting quicker n quicker. n sometimes we even paced ourselves so quick tat we didn't hav e patient 2 wait on God, wait 4 Him n His words. our hearts been so noisy, our minds been so busy wif things we need 2 do; our work, our families even wif church stuffs.

tat day when i was in thoughts n looking @ e traffic lights, He suddenly told mi abt tis.

E traffic lights r a signal 4 u 2 do rite tis period. ur pace is getting quick n I wan u 2 slow down ur pace a little.

red is 2 stop wadever u r doing or thinking, quiet down ur mind n heart
yellow is 2 slow down n wait for Me, dun get out 2 quickly, wait patiently
green is tat u ready 2 go n take up any challenges tat i've posted ahead of u as u hav recharged ur strength in Me

so, tis is e relevation tat i gt these few days...

i'm going 2 do e traffic lights steps, have u done urs? =)

11:55 PM
Evadne

Sunday, November 15, 2009

ever heard of ever after tis movie? i simply love tis movie... itz 1 of my favorite movies... itz not juz becoz i simply love cinderella stories but i tend 2 notice something else juz beside e main actors, actresses, story line.

in tis movie, i've noticed a character tat moved my heart. she was not e most prettiest or e talented 1 in the movie. or shall i say she could go easily unnoticed. y she moved my heart? itz becoz itz seems 2 be so real 2 mi in real life. itz like my sitution in my life. She can be easily going unnoticed as her mother put all her attention 2 ur other sister who had a greater chance of beening e prince's wife.

in my life, in my family, i'm e 1 who always goes unnoticed. my parents put their attention more on my sis den mi. although i dun really get so called jealous wif those gals who can freely tok 2 their moms or go shopping wif them, but i do get envied them. although mi n my mom goes out shopping 2gether but we never had a chance really toking our hearts out. in my family, i can onli be e emotionaless doll. a doll which has onli 1 expression.a doll tat cannot express her feelings out freely.

in e movie, she always helped 'cinderella' in her own ways not tat she helped a lot. her mother always looked down on her n didn't really take a good look @ her. even @ almost end of e movie, she even asked her did she had any part of e situation tat she was in. but she replied she onli came 4 e food. tatz e exectly wad her mother had told her 2 do when they were going 4 e ball where her sister had nice costume while she had e horse costume.

mi n my mom realationship is always up n down when tiz up, itz usually went well but when itz down, it can go very badly. although it went quite smoothly these yrs, but sometimes it can go very wrong. my feelings will always goes unnoticed n they never realised tat their words had aready hurting mi. they keep on saying tat they r not scolding mi but itz doing mi gd. but they never realised my feelings. true sometimes i can be stubbon as i never liked ppl compraring mi wif other ppl. mi is mi no matter hw i can never be like other ppl n i never will. they keep saying tat i onli think of food, if i dun think of food wad can i even think of as they dun wan 2 start a conversation wif mi? they keep saying i can onli think of eating, if i dun eat hw can i stop myself thinking neg ways?

most of e times, they put my sister in front of mi n i do get jealous abt her as she e star in their hearts. i'm onli e 2nd place or am i beening cast in2 small corner?

i'm juz feeling like e character in e movie... but, wad she dun hav is tat i hav Jesus in my heart n i'm e apple of His eyes. tatz wad really matters.

10:29 AM
Evadne

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

a new skin a new beginning.... well... itz all started new actually... lolz...

i've started a new temp job recently n can't really seemz 2 getting enough sleep... lolz... although i started work @ 9 but i usually reached work place @ around 8, 8 plus.... hehe... a lot seemz to be happening n i juz dunno wad 2 say... or maybe i'm getting oldder tatz y i'm getting more emotional? haha... i will find my very best times 2 come up n update my blog... =D

recently, we been transfered back 2 E zone again... although i dun really noe e reasons but i guess tatz e way they wan it 2 be... coz E zone itz where we used 2 be b4 we transfer 2 G zone... although we had a lot of gd menmories in G zone, i guess we'll create new 1 in E zone... =D kinda missing it actually... lolz...

10:42 PM
Evadne